Too Much To Do, In So Little Time!

Wow between work, classes, homework and ...my dvd collection, I have been getting slack with my posts.

Don't really have much to report. Went to work this arvo. Was a few minutes late, I ran from the tram. No one said anything, so I don't think they had a problem....I hope.

Last night I was all ready to go to bed at midnight and then I started writing some sappy(well thats what Elsa would call it) romantic Jordan/Woody fan fic. Well it's not really a fic, but a bunch of scenes that came from one original idea.

I'll post what I have so far.

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Jordan sighed as she opened her front door of her lonely apartment. The idea of spending another Christmas alone depressed her. She had just come from an informal dinner at the Morgue, but unfortunately it didn’t fill her with great enthusiasm for Christmas Day itself.

Jordan took of her thick winter coat, which was now damp from the snow, put her keys on the table, and poured herself a glass of water. She sat on the couch and picked up the paper. She glanced over at a photo sitting on a shelf of her as a little girl, about 5 with her mother and father. She wondered where Max was, if he was okay….but it was pointless and a little painful to think about it too much. So she turned her attention back to the paper that she had opened. Unfortunately the paper was full of mixed articles, just as many were depressing, as were happy and uplifting. And she returned it to its former place on her crowded coffee table.

Jordan stared around her apartment once more, before pulling out her Ipod and listening to some tunes with some good old Christmas charm.
About half an hour later, she suddenly sat up with a jolt, having fallen asleep in the corner of her quite comfy sofa. She took the headphones out of her ears and was able to figure out that there was someone at the door. They knocked again.

“Yeah I’m coming!”

She called out as she made her way to that red door of her apartment.

“Hurry up, its not nice to leave a guy waiting outside on Christmas Eve you know!”

She smiled at the sound of Woody’s teasing, and opened the door.

“What are you doing here?”

She asked him, blocking the doorway.

“Aren’t you going to invite me in?”

Jordan pondered this for a moment, making the blue eyed detective squirm.
He made a face, and she stepped aside.

“So what brings you to my humble abode this late, on Christmas Eve no less. Don’t you have plans?”

He shrugged as he replied.

“What kind of plans exactly?”

“No Christmas get together with your brother?”

Woody looks at Jordan, she can tell that he hasn’t really heard from him. A situation quite similar to her own.

“Well at least you have some idea where he is…”
She responded flatly.

Woody smiled sympathetically at her.

“Looks like we’re a couple of loners my friend.”

Jordan gestured for Woody to sit on the couch. Jordan ventured into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of wine and two glasses.

“So you didn’t answer my question…”

She sat next to him on the couch and began pouring the wine.

“The ‘what am I doing here’ question?”

Jordan nods.

“Well tell me, just how much fun were YOU having sitting home alone on Christmas Eve?”

She shook her head with a tiny smile.

After a moment, she took a breath.

“Well I’m having much more fun now that you’re here!”

She said with a hint of sarcasm.

“Thanks!”

He took a sip of his wine. Jordan was already half finished hers and cradling the glass in her hand.

“Okay I have a suggestion.”

“Go on.”

“Why don’t we play a game.”

“A game?!”

She sat up interested, but chose to mock Woody instead.

“What are you 6?”

She mocked with a grin.

“Just humor me okay!”

She nodded in agreement.
“Do you have a deck of cards?”

Jordan glanced around her apartment.

“Yes.”

She got up and walked over to a desk, opened a drawer and pulled out a deck of cards.
She returned to the couch and placed them on the table in front of Woody.

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“Do you have any twos?”

Jordan and Woody were sitting on her living room floor. Jordan had a rather large pile of cards next to her.

Woody sighed.

“This sounded like more fun in theory!”

And he handed over a card, which Jordan took with much glee.

“I’m having fun!”

Woody gave her a childish grin.

“No I am. I’d rather spend my Christmas Eve playing cards with you, than sitting myself doing nothing.”

“Thank you. Now do you have any threes?”

“Nope. Go Fish Woodrow.”

“I think I’m starting to hate this game!”

“Only cause I’m kicking your butt!”

“Now where’s your Christmas spirit?”

She grinned at him. And looked her cards over. She was down to three now.

“Got any Queens?”

Woody looked his cards over and groaned, before handing over yet another card to Jordan.

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Jordan and Woody have returned to the couch.

“Hey it was your idea to play cards man!”

Woody glares at her, suspiciously.

“Well who knew you’d be the Queen of Go Fish!”

“Sore loser!”

She teased.

“Well if you get to deal all the time…maybe you cheat.”

Jordan asks shocked.

“Never!”

She can’t help but giggling.

“So now what?”

Jordan picks up the remote.

“Lets see what’s on the TV.”

“Oh no. I think I should get to be in charge of the remote!”

And he grabs it out of her hands.
She tries to fight him for it…but to no avail.

“Mine!”

Jordan crosses her arms and pouts.

“Meanie.”

Apparently Christmas is a time for childish acts…because Woody pokes his tongue out at Jordan…and she does the same back.

Woody turns on the TV and starts flicking.

“Ooo this looks good!”

“Jordan, it’s an infomercial.”

Jordan rolls her eyes.

“Okay carry on then.”

He does.

“How about this?”

“You know what this is, right?!”

“Sure. It’s ‘It’s a wonderful life.’”

“Exactly.”

“Supposedly one of the best Christmas movies of all time.”

“What’s the deal with people thinking that the world would be better off without them?”

“Says the local ‘runaway girl’!”

“You know what I mean.”

Woody sighs and takes her hand.

“Yeah. I do.”

He smiles at her.

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What I wrote last night was better than what I've done today. But anyways..it's just for fun. -I need a romantic fix. I haven't had one recently. I suppose there's a bit of a romance on ER, but not on anything else, and I haven't really watched any romantic movies lately. ...not counting the quite romantic 'The Princess Bride', which I introduced my mother to tonight.

I watched 'I shot Andy Warhol' tonight. I bought it the other day cause Jill is in it. She had funny 60's hair. lol

Well that's about it for today..oh and I've been playing with Google Earth. -It's fun to zoom around places like Boston.
lol.


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Carls

Where Do We Go From Here?

So on the weekend...a very busy weekend I'll have you.., I went to the VCE careers expo with mum. I got a bunch of course guides for next year, and now the annoying and extremely difficult task of choosing a course to study next year is upon me. I have till the end of September I think.

I think I am a little closer to deciding what I wanna do. Or maybe am just a little clearer about what I DON'T want to do.
I am probably looking at some kind of IT, or business thing now. Or a creative writing thing maybe. Who knows. It's gonna take a lot more research.
While I still have a small interest in teaching, I think that that wouldn't make me happy. I'd get sick of it. And I really want to travel with my job, so maybe something like what Sarah is doing. Cause from what I hear, she really enjoys her job and also is making decent money and travelling and stuff.
It's stupid how after all these years of having to do certain things, that they try to make you pick one course to study.


anyways...enough of that.

I worked 15 hours on the weekend...and thursday night too. And then I worked tonight as well. Hmm.
On Saturday night the Hargraves came over and we had dinner. It was nice to see them. Sunday afternoon Neil and Sylvia came over and eventually the Hargraves, they were all going out to Sophia's for dinner. I was really bummed that I couldn't go. 1) I love hanging out with Neil and Sylvia, as we NEVER see them! and 2) I LOVE Sophia's! lol.

We went to the other JB today after work and they didn't have the dvd recorder I want either! (We stopped in at Chaddy on the way home on Sunday from the expo).
I will have to wait a little longer. Hmm.

I'm not working again till Friday night, but I'm still busy busy busy. I'm going out to dinner for Bec P's birthday tomorrow night, and then I have class, hanging in the city and then a 2 hour lecture that Bree wants us to go to for our Monday class.
Speaking of which, she had a complete go at me today...and everyone else! ....I think she needs to have the stick removed from her butt!

Well I should probably get to sleep...it's almost 2:30...woops.
I've almost finished downloading the new ep of CJ...I dunno when I'm gonna get to watch it...as everyone is home tomorrow. Hmm. Well maybe I can hope for an hour alone! *holds on to potentially false hope*

hehe.

anyways...
Night night, don't let the bed bugs bite!...or the ones in your head either.

Oodles of Toodles to all.

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Carls...or Claire as I called myself this morning when I got my coffee. :)

I Just Feel Crappy!

Today was just a bad day for me. Almost everything made me sad or grumpy!

I went to class..that was fine, I got a lift...I almost got hit by a car crossing the road to the station. That wasn't fun. It sorta freaked me out...but it was my own choice to run for it...I did see the car coming.....

So then I went to class..I'd gotten my coffee. But we watched this crappy movie and I got a stomachache.
Then after class finally ended, we had to hang around for ages doing group work for our debate on monday. I had to say that it was time for me to go, when it got to 2:30pm. I didn't get home till almost 3:30pm. I then I sat around watching 2 eps of Dawson's Creek, and got totally weirded out by Sasha Alexander...cause she's always been Gretchen from DC in her other shows...but I think because of watching NCIS the night before, she was just Kate to me. lol. It was weird.

Then I went to work at 6pm. I was exhausted. And then I was sure I finished at 9pm...I signed off and everything then I got called back saying I was actually on till 9:30pm. I read the roster wrong. I felt like crying inside. I hate being in the wrong, and looking bad. And I was just so tired and wanted to go home. I find it really hard to do stuff if I'm not in the mind set to do it. My mind believed I was finished at 9pm....so yeah.

Then Mum got grouchy, cause she'd been waiting in the car.
Then when we got home I got grouchy cause Scott was watching tv and I wanted to.
Then I made my dinner and sat in my room crying. Cause I just felt like crying. And I listened to sad songs on my iPod. I then made my bed and realised mum had made my hair appointment for next wednesday, when I'm supposed to be going to the city with my friends. So she got mad at me. And made up in her head that I'd told her wednesday, when I told her the next Tuesday. *sigh*.

I am just in a bad mood.
Oh and work offered me a contract with regular hours...but they suck! I would never have a life!
They want me to work 6-11pm on Friday nights! EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT! and then 1:30-6:30pm on Saturdays and then 10am-3pm on Sundays! I'll never have time for anything! AND I'll never get the takeaway dinner on Friday nights!...or my tv time!...or be able to go out!

So yeah..I'm not gonna do that. I think I'll stick to the random for a little longer...the hours are just not gonna work for me.

Well I think that's all I have to say for now. Tomorrow I have no class cause my teachers gonna be away. I'm working at 6pm. Joy. I'm not really looking forward to working this weekend.

Keep On Trucking!

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Carlie

The End of Another Easter

Well as of now...what is technically Tuesday, the long weekend is over. Easter has once again come and gone. -Though this is the first time in a while that Easter has actually not been part of the school holidays.
I was looking at the papers today, and reading about all the people who went to church yesterday, and all those that got baptised over the weekend.
I think I would like to be baptised. I consider myself a believer in God, and so should be baptised accordingly...though the question then becomes, what denomination would I be baptised under?!
My father grew up a Catholic, and his family has now turned away from the Church. My Mother was raised a Presbyterian.
No one else seems to be overly interested in Religion in my house. I think Nicole would be if she was exposed to it more. But then again, I've only had a little more experiance than she has!

So once again, the question of my religion is no closer to being solved or sorted. -Someday perhaps. Maybe I should just walk into a church and ask to be baptised....though anyone knowing me...if there is anyone, knows that I couldn't do that.

So yes, now the weekend is over. Though I don't actually have any classes until Thursday.
Friday I stayed home, I slept in and just hung around the house. I stayed up a little to watch the start of the Crossing Jordan Marathon on W (Foxtel). I watched 2 episodes and then went to bed. I got up again at about 8:15am. I watched more and spent the rest of the day watching them. -Till 3, when there was an hours break, so I showered and changed.
It was so much fun. Though I now feel like watching Crossing Jordan all the time. lol.
I had to work at 7pm, so I left the tape going, like I did when I was sleeping, and came back after my 3 hour shift.
I then stayed up and watched 2 of the episodes I missed the day before.

Sunday I slept in late again, I had the house to myself, since Mum and Dad were down at Uncle John's house and Scott was at work. I watched the rest of the episodes of Crossing Jordan and then just watched tv and did stuff on the computer.

Today I watched tv, I did some homework, and I had to work from 4pm till 7pm. I had fun talking to one of the girls. We were laughing about quotes from Finding Nemo. We were in hysterics at one point. It was pretty funny.

Well thats all I've got for right now. I should go get some sleep. Got a lot more homework to do tomorrow. -Joy. hehe.

Ooodles of Toodles and ooosies.

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Carlie

I'm Bored!

Okay well I should really be going to bed...but instead I'm here sitting at my computer, now I say that loosely....as it's not technically my computer...it belongs to the whole family, via my mother who actually paid for it...
So yeah.. I really own no part of it. lol.

But anyways...it's mine! MINE!

I should really get my own...but hey, I'm still working on a bloody TV for my room!

I've had the last 2 days off. That's been great. Though I had to get up early yesterday cause we had an electrician come to fix our non-working lights. They were fixed, and I then sat and watched new episodes of Crossing Jordan and Las Vegas. -There's no better way to spend some time! :D

Tonight I worked for 3 and a half hours. Work and I are interesting. It's kinda like school. I sorta love the idea of it...but when I am doing it, I spend a lot of time wishing I was at home. OH well. It's gonna take some getting used to. In the meantime the money is great!
I went and got a new phone on Monday after class. It's quite shiny and does things my last phone could only dream on. -Interesting notion...phones having dreams! lol.

Oh and we went to a taping of Spicks and Specks Monday night too! It was hilarious! I had a great time and I told Adam Hills (the host) that it was Nikki's birthday the day before and he got the whole audience to sing happy birthday to her. It was great! And everyone was really really REALLY funny!
Of course Myf's team didn't win...but I still had a great time. And we hung around after and got their autographs. -It seems kinda stupid..but they are cool, so it was nice to be able to say hi. lol

Tomorrow I have class again and then am working from 8:30pm till midnight! That's gonna be fun! I'll need lots of coffee tomorrow I think!

Oh well I can sleep in Friday.

Well I should really hurry up and get to bed.

Oodles of Toodles

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Carlie

Happy Birthday Nikki!

Today is my sister Nikki's 11th Birthday. -She's getting all growed up! It's scary! lol.

Today we went shopping at Chaddy, for the first time in weeks. I wanted to get a bunch of new clothes. Nikki wanted more presents and I had to get her something from me.
Nikki got all grumpy because Mum wouldn't let her get this Sims2 expansion pack, and then said she could and then said she couldn't. -My mother never stays strong on things, she's such a push over. I hate that! It didn't do me any good and it won't do Nikki any good either.
Anyways..she didn't end up getting the game.
I was stressing the whole time because I needed to get home to do homework. -I am starting to get behind. It's not good!

I managed to find some new jeans and some brown pants in Just Jeans. The jeans are getting taken up and I will have to go back and get them at some stage....hmm.

Tonight we went out to dinner for Nikki's birthday. We went to a place called Michaelangelos. It was really nice. Scott and I shared a pizza.

I'm really tired now and have a headache. The work that is due tomorrow is done...as best as it could be today.
I will have to go to the ATM before class tomorrow, so that I can have money for a coffee on the break!

I think I'll go to bed and get some extra rest. lol.
Last night I had a really odd dream about Crossing Jordan. I wonder if I'll have a cool dream tonight?! lol

Goodnight

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Carlie

So Now It's April

I have never been a big fan of March, for a few reasons, but mostly that there are so many damm people with birthdays in that month. -In just my family alone!
I've always felt left out for that, especially when we do the big family party for the Sheehan's, my dad's side. There's Pop, Mum, Scott, Jade, Caitlin and Kieran. -And also sometimes Nikki, though she is actually April 9th.

April usually brings Easter, or at least school holidays. But this year we've already had our holidays, due to the Commonwealth Games. -Just the name Commonwealth is open to great controversey....okay not gonna go there...as 1) I really don't have the time, and 2) I dunno if I care that much.

So yeah, today I slept in, after being up way too late on the computer. I watched the new episode of Las Vegas, and episode 9 of NCIS which I had downloaded.
I also watched a lot of Dawson's Creek today. About another 4 episodes.

Also attempted some homework.

I also typed up the new final scene version I wrote in class the other day. Now I just have to go through both of them and pick what I like about both and see if I can use any of it, to make just 1 scene. -It shouldn't be that hard, they're pretty much the same.

Tomorrow I have my short class. We were supposed to have picked a topic (a wide idea at least) for our Research Project. -I have none. I seriously have NO idea what I could research. -Maybe I just need some clarification. I dunno. It'll get sorted out.
-I'm also starting to look into courses to do next year. I dunno what though, but I think I am considering the teaching option again.

The weather is getting colder, which is nice. I do love winter. I love snuggling up and wearing coats and boots and stuff. But it means I have to hurry up and go shopping so that I actually have some clothes to wear! hehe

Enjoy your Wednesdays

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Carlie

Today's The Day

Today I had work. Work was work. Heh. I had to sort out a mix up with my schedule, they had rostered me on for tomorrow during the day, when I am supposed to be in class. So I had to get out of that shift. I also filled out a new form telling them what hours I can work.

Now to totally change the subject. :)
I LOVE Sarah McLachlan's music. I really should go and buy all her CDs. I am currently listening to 'Fallen'. It's a great song. Her music is both really sweet and deep, and also pretty and sad and can be depressing when you feel like being sad and depressed.
-Which I have been feeling a bit lately. -That's one reason for sharing my song last night.
I keep going to bed, wanting to cry. I don't really know why. But I just feel like crying.
I rented Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire on Friday night and that made me cry.

I wonder if there is a reason I end up loving movies or episodes of tv shows that make me cry. Some of my favorite episodes of all time are the ones which had me totally bawling. Hmm.

I'm not working again until Friday, I will have to either leave class early, or skip class altogether in order to make it to work on time. I am supposed to start at 1pm. And I guess I won't finish till 6pm. Fun. And I'm working again on Saturday. I stupidly said I would cover for one of the guys. Meh. I can used the dosh. :)

I'm just about halfway through season 2 of Dawson's Creek on my dvds now. I wish I had more time to watch them all. I can't wait till easter and the CJ marathon. :) It's gonna be way too much fun.

So tonight I leave with the sentiment,
Cry if you feel like it, you will often feel much better after, -especially after a good nights sleep.

Take care, be safe

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Carlie

Little Girl

This is a song/poem that I found on my computer just now. I wrote it sometime last year I think, and it's all about my experiance with cancer as a kid.
I felt like posting it in that it's been almost 11 year since I've been cancer free.

It's a very personal thing, but I kinda felt like putting it out there somewhere.

Little Girl, oh so small
She’s already seen it all
She’s knows suff’ring
She knows pain
The fear it could come back again

That little girl with eyes of blue
She’s already had so much to go though
Too young to truly understand
Only just started writing with her little left hand
She seemed so normal at first glance
But now her whole future’s up to chance

Pricks and needles, days so long
All these tests go on and on
Never feeling very well
Some days she really went through hell
It all left her tired and drained
How bad it was, was never really explained

Days turned to months and months to years,
Each bringing with them a bunch of new fears
Lonely and bored everyday in that room
People tried so hard to relieve all the gloom
There were toys and games she was spoilt so rotten
So many things that can’t be forgotten

People around her often stayed away
Not wanting to get close, in case she went away
Had so much more than the medicine to deal with
This really was no way for a small child to live
So much fighting, so much resolve
This was one puzzle she just couldn’t solve
Always known by those she met
Sometimes she wished everyone would simply forget

That she was brave and that she was strong,
That she was fighting and holding on
A little girl with so much to lose
This was a life no one would choose.

Her spirit was strong
Her smile so bright
She was all alone there in the night
So detached from the big world outside
So innocent and small she lay and cried
She didn’t know why it had chosen her
She wished it could all be like it was before
When she was just a normal girl
Back to when she was so tiny and small