12 of 12 - February 2016 Sydney

Well I am back, with a new 12 of 12.

1. 11:24am
Morning tea at the airport before flying off to Sydney for the weekend with my mum.

2. 12:33pm
Bye Bye Melbourne

 3. 2:46pm

Interesting (and empty) hotel front desk

4. 3:12pm

Finally up in the room. What a great view of Hyde Park!

 

5. 4:05pm
Heading out into the city.

6. 4:37pm
Chinese New Year lanterns are all over Sydney. Here is the Pig.

7.   4:44pm
QV Building

8. 4:48pm
Amazing heritage features. Although the old lift was a little scary.

9.  5:04pm
Mum found the Rooster outside H&M.

10.  5:52pm
Some rather disorganized dancers in front of the Ox!

11.  7:56pm
Finally found somewhere to have dinner...and drinks.

12. 10:09pm
Back at the hotel. The view at nice is just as impressive.

That's the 12. I had a great weekend in Sydney with Mum. Back to work tomorrow.

-Carlie

Memories

So things are still the same, the house has been sold, and we are moving mid June. I am looking for somewhere to live, but its hard to find something nice enough that is affordable.

I've hit a bit of depression funk, with the move, having no social life these days, and job issues.
I have spent a lot of time at home by myself...and now I'm sick of myself. Living by myself is going to be hard. I'm lonely and can't do anything. I'm saving money that eventually I'll get to spend when I move. But I can't plan a holiday, or buy cool stuff...I just feel stuck.

In other news, I have been doing a lot of memory reading. I noticed that my ability to remember so much stuff is something that bothers me with other people. I get annoyed that they don't remember things, when I do....such as conversations or plans. I remember conversations in detail, and then get frustrated when other people don't remember. I remember all kinds of situations and events, whether they are everyday or of importance. Sometimes the fact that I remember everything drives me crazy. I get worked up going over and over bad times, or conversations where someone has put me down.
I don't remember everything though...I don't remember every single aspect of a tv show, or song lyrics, or information relating to my studies (for some reason). But I can remember facts. I can remember who is on a naughty list at work. Or if a business has come up in conversation before. I can remember what I wore or someone else wore to work. I can recite scenes from tv...and remember names and faces. -Sometimes it takes a little while, but I can retrieve things...like some details are hidden further away.
I also have very vivid dreams and can often remember them in detail when I wake up.

My brain is full of good and bad memories from my life. My earliest memory is from when I was 2 and a half the day after my brother was born when my dad picked me up from my Grandparents house. I have tons of memories from then onwards. While I am not good with specific dates, I can replay memories in my head, like watching an episode of tv.

Maybe this is related to my love of tv...the fact that I view life like a tv show...with each moment being part of an episode of a greater season.

Who knows how memory works....its a mystery. Maybe someday I will be able to forget all the bad stuff...but maybe not. I love that I have a great memory, as it makes me feel important at work. But I am working on not judging people on their lack of memory for these kinds of things. I am starting to realise that I am special in this way, and it is not their fault for not remembering.

Hopefully once everything is settled in a few months, I can relax, and start thinking about the future and less about the past and this past 6 months which has been extremely stressful.

Changes All Around

So its been a whirlwind few months for me. I've gone through a lot.

I lost my Grandma the wednesday before Christmas. So that week was really hard. So much has been going on that I am still processing it now. I miss her so much. She was my favorite family member, and the family member I was closest too.
The funeral was the day after boxing day, so that was just a mad week.

There have been tradies working on my house since November, fixing it up for sale. The constant change of my family home of 28 years hasn't been easy for me. I have not handled it well. I freaked out about changes and once I got upset about that, I lost it about everything...and couldn't control it. I've been having lots of fights.

Its a lot of change in a short amount of time. And I've lived here all my life...that little changes make me sad, and its hard to imagine moving out and someone else having my house.

Then the house went on the market a few weeks ago. And inspections started last saturday. I feel my mum and sister are not keeping the house tidy, and we were rushing around last week getting ready. I fought with mum...cause I am feeling alone. I don't get to talk to mum, because Nicole is always around and telling me to get out. Plus the only thing Mum and I used to do was drive to visit Grandma and I can't do that anymore. Plus once we move and I got to my own place...I won't have mum to chat to. I will be alone and I am liking the idea of that less and less.


Also I got ambushed the other day at work. I was told by my boss Marc that I HAD to go work wit the footpath trading team...which isn't terrible and not a different area or anything. I just really really liked the Development Permits side and was getting really good at that. I liked working with Jill. And I feel I was better at it than some of the others. Plus the fast pace of it is great.
So I kinda lost it. They pretty much said I had to do it. So that bummed me out.
This was the first week working on the other stuff. Its ok. But I've been moving around different seats...and I feel a bit isolated. I don't get to chat to customers on the phone all day, or get to talk to other people on the pod. Especially now that I'm in the little room, with just the two desks. But maybe I'll adjust eventually. The last time I did the job, I had a bit of a breakdown. So that really worries me. But I think there might be more for me to do this time around. Last time I was bored out of my mind. Plus if things get bad I might start looking for a new job.

Another inspection tomorrow....so its all changing fast. Gotta start thinking about finding a place to live. Scary freaking stuff.


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Carlie

12 of 12 Summer!

1 of 12 - 9:30am
Sleeping in is NICE!

2 of 12 - 11:13am
Time for Raising Hope!

3 of 12 - 12:14pm
Bones is Back!

 

 

4 of 12 - 1:50pm
To Southland We Go! Its a great view from the top level of the car park.

5 of 12 - 1:50pm
My Shopping Buddy Jacinta and my semi shiny new car currently called 'Baby Blue', but other names are still in the running.

6 of 12 - 4:43pm
The Beach! Too cool for a swim for me, I sunbathed. But Jacinta was keen.

7 of 12 - 5:01pm

Brighton Beach You're So Pretty.

8 of 12 - 5:03pm

Clear to the City

9 of 12 -  5:04pm

Rock Pools

  

10 of 12 - 5:04pm

Beach boxes

 

11 of 12 - 6:25pm
BBQ - We put Jacinta to Work!

12 of 12 - 8:06pm
Filling Some Holes in My Blu-Ray Collection

12 of 12 December - Christmas Theme

12 of 12 December Edition

1 of 12
9am - Christmas catalog browsing over breakfast.

2 of 12
7:50am - Off to work in my semi new snazzy car. Loving the powerful air con on a warm day like today.

3 of 12
9am - My work Christmas lights...little reindeers!

  

4 of 12
9:02am - Little Christmas tree at work.

 

5 of 12
3:56pm - Chocolate Teddy Bear time.

6 of 12
8:45pm - My Christmas Tree set up in the living room.

7 of 12
9pm - Outside Christmas Lights. Adding more each day.

8 of 12
9:01pm - More Christmas Lights

9 of 12
9:03pm - Santa on my window.

10 of 12
9:04pm -Christmas Tree on the porch

11 of 12
9:05pm - Cute little lit up house, more to come!

12 of 12
9:30pm - Pan Am time. So sad this show got cancelled. It was romantic, exciting, and full of old timey charm and politics.

12 of 12 October 2013

I finally set a reminder for this month. So here we have it. Saturday 12th October 2013

1 of 12
10:30am  - I'm having a bit of a throwback with my music lately. Today its Shania Twain.

2 of 12
11am - Couldn't ask for a nicer day. Warm and sunny - hope it lasts!

3 of 12

12:30pm - I decided to not give up on Glee yet. Bawled my eyes out watching the goodbye Finn/Corey Monteith memorial ep today. Beautifully done. Major props to Lea Michele

4 of 12
2pm - A box of memories, years and years worth of movie stubs and concert/theatre tickets
 

5 of 12
2:30pm - old friends being unpacked and packed away in a new storage box. I really do miss Buffy and Angel.

6 of 12
2:45pm - Finally throwing out my old Buffy VHS. Hopefully I will replace them with the DVDs...or hopefully someday Blurays.

7 of 12
6:20pm - Dinner out in Hawthorn with Jacinta at Bay City Burrito!

8 of 12
7pm - Hanging out in Glenferrie road Hawthorn on a warm Melbourne evening.

9 of 12

7:20pm - Hawthorn flag flying high! 

10 of 12
7:50pm - Oxygen's West Side Story at Xavier College in Kew.

11 of 12
10:30pm - view of the city from Xavier!

12 of 12
10:31pm - the church at Xavier all lit up. 

Theatre Light

So I have become a terrible blogger...I keep forgetting about writing stuff.

So after Hawaii I was quite busy for a little while. Work started up a glee club, with a singing teacher, but it was more of a choir really I guess. I could only go 2 out of 4 weeks because of Hawaii and my annual doctors appointment.
-Speaking of, it went well...I didn't get another lecture like last year.  He just said to keep exercsing and lose 5kg before next year...well AIM to.....

So back to glee club - After the last week, we were invited to sing 3 songs at The Greyhound Hotel across the road from work with our singing teacher who does a show on Friday Nights. So I invited Jacinta along, but had to kill time till 7pm which was when we were meeting. I fiugred it was too much effort to go home and back, so I drove around and got some dinner. Then met up with Jacinta and headed over. The place was tiny, and there were no free tables, because they were all reserved...so we had no where to put our stuff and it was kinda pointless. But our teacher had a table and said we could sit there till her friends arrived at 8pm. So we got up and sang...all 5 of us that turned up. It was good but kinda lame since we didn't have much atmosphere and the songs were over so quickly!
We are actually starting up Glee club again this week...hopefully will get a few more people this time around.

The weekend after we got back from Hawaii - was Idina Menzel's concert at Hamer Hall. We had great seats really close. She was great, and the show was different to what we saw in the US, so that was lucky. -I really wish she'd stop doing Poker Face though...

We also saw Legally Blonde again, which was great...and we hung out at the stage door to get our programs signed in Melbourne (finally) and chatted to everyone about the last show which was a few weeks later.
The last show was great fun.  Ness had her friends and Mum and Sister with her so we had a big group which was good. It was so sad to see it come to an end, and the cast did really well not to lose it...till near the end. I'm still missing it months later!
But the good thing is Lucy is going to be in Wicked when it comes back next year...so yay!!!!


The Production Company started back up again in July with Gypsy. It was really good. I was prepared not to like Caroline O'Connor much, but she was great in Gypsy...just not other things I guess.
Last month they did Singing in The Rain...which while Christie Whelan-Browne and Matt Lee stole the show...was pretty lackluster.
But our seats were amazing for both. We got a subscription this year and that means we can keep the same seats every year!


Jacinta also joined a Rotary Club and  they had a trivia night in July. I went along and met some of her friends. It was good fun. It was at the Richmond Town Hall. Afterwards we decided to head to the pancake parlour in Chadstone for some late night food!

Her friends also decided to do Trivia night at The Notting Hill Pub, and so now we do that every Wednesday night. We have managed to place 1st once, plus 2nd and 3rd. So we always have vouchers for the bar!

We have also had some changes happen at work. Susan has gone on Maternity leave, and Phillipa has moved to another department till April. So I went for Susan's level 5 job...but they didn't give it to me. -Which pissed me off...but I did get Phillipa's while she's away. We have Jodie with us now, who is lovely and has been working next to us with planning till now.
We are getting another new person this week. And then another at the end of October...so its all happening at work.

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Carlie